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SHADOWS

by B1GJuice

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    The SHADOWS lyric-scrapbook documents and highlights the creative journey we took to complete the album. Grab yours now to get access to lyrics from the album, behind-the-scene content, therapeutic exercises, and the exclusive 'SHADOWS' Short Film.

    Each scrapbook comes with an incense burner and set of 8 “Aastha” incense sticks (free from charcoal and animal by-products) ideal for meditation. Use them to help you on your own journey of self-reflection.

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1.
Dusk 01:44
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Hard to recognize when I can’t be the one Try to find the light but I can’t see the sun Focused on the prize, sometimes I miss the gun Struggle in my eyes can see I get it done Never worry on the outside, inside it’s flurries Cold like Pittsburgh, disturbed and discouraged I hurry to fix up, mind in a mix up Twist up, exhale, get mine, keep my distance I distrust, easy breeze can’t get near me Whispers in my ear ‘bout friends I miss dearly Clearly it’s fear, but damn I’m so weary Fighting back tears hoping you'll hear me Surrounded by mirrors I’m trying to break free Reflection get clearer, it’s weird cause I can’t make me out from what they did to made me Tryna break me Seems like I’m living my life like it’s in HD Paradise can’t lay on my back, I feel a pair ‘a knives Marathon goals I’m on the run, like I'm a pair ‘a Nikes Grinding for these blessings ‘till they come, they don’t appear in life Down to pay the fee till I’m on top, I don’t got fear of heights Naw, I don’t got fear of heights Naw, I don’t got fear of heights
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City of Angels 02:33
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Tripping off this Slipping off of this Whipping off this Cost of living off this Reminiscing off this Tripping off this Slipping off this Whipping off this Cost of living off this I ain’t switching off Cruising round, I got nowhere to go Lost my route, I’m finally on the go Lost and found, might find me on the road Lost in sound, the sonics help me float Sonic catch me running for the gold Tonic in my cup, it help me flow Corners filled with smoke, look like a ghost Smokers in my section, heavy dose Time to lose hope Found out I’m always in control Don’t mind if I don’t know where to go Time will tell my soul Sometimes feel the grind up in my bones I want the diamonds and the rose Don’t put my diamonds in a rope I want my diamonds in a row I be tripping off of this Slipping off of this Whipping off of this Cost of living off this Reminiscing off this Unforgiving off this Lane switching off piff I aint switching off shit I was tripping off of this Slipping off of this Whipping off this Cost of living off this Reminiscing off this Unforgiving off this Lane switching off piff Ain't no switching off shit All up in my head Time to get this bread Soldiers in the field Different type of lead Hate to see my bed All I think ‘bout is death Ain't no rules in the game I be trippin’ on the ref For my team, I’ll go in debt Go all in lets make a bet Crunch time, I’m going in Made my name up in da stretch I don't even gotta flex Feel that pain up in my chest I got used to the bottom Made my home up in da trench I was tripping off of this Tripping off of that Take a trip to find bliss Then take a trip to climb back Reminiscing off this Unforgiving off that Lane switching off piff I ain't switching off shit, no Switching off I ain’t tripping off Reminiscing off I ain’t trippin’ off shit, no
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Urge 03:00
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Slippin’ on this lonely road Four AM alone, I’d rather burn and roam Burning road, trying not to lose my soul Airplane mode, trying not to lose my zone Try my phone, I’m not around In the clouds, tryna figure out, ain't coming down Lost hope, then I lost my smile lost child Treading water but I’d rather drown It's been a while since I felt happiness around If you find me laid out, it ain’t a two-eleven Took two to the head, not a few Excedrin Thought I would live forever, but can't be perceptive Cause this life that I’m living ain't worth the investment Couple demons in my section, gotta keep ‘em by me For protection, cause my ghost look to do me slimey Memories of good times, I remember bliss I reminisce, take a dose, then I take a trip Take a double dose Eyes roll back, trying to find some hope Here we go I Take a double dose Eyes roll back, trying to find some hope Here we go, I Take a double dose Eyes roll back, trying to find some hope Here we go, I Take a double dose Take a double dose Here we go Somedays eyes open up to sunrays Thinking how bad could it be Then I get to running back the days When I wasn't making plays Same dream since a nigga seventeen What the fuck do you mean ‘let it go’ I was holding on to hope Left me danglin’ in the air Then somebody cut the rope So let em know I’m coming back for action Thought I was trapped but I was planning Four walls, I've been scratching Taking nothing less than satisfaction Mind active, no relaxing Deep diving for the casket Pull myself up out the madness Cause the shit I felt was tragic Said I’d stop but I relapse I get closer to my demons Cause I struggle with the facts, so I Take a double dose Eyes roll back, trying to find some hope Here we go I Take a double dose Eyes roll back, trying to find some hope Here we go, I Take a double dose Eyes roll back, trying to find some hope Here we go, I Take a double dose Take a double dose Here we go
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Calling Out 00:47
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Calling out to God Hoping that He hear me Times getting hard Life getting scary Got a mind full of scars Truth so daring Folks can't bare me Old ‘tings can't stand me So mindful of the stars Hoping that they fear me Cause these black hole bars gonna fill me up plenty Friendships getting weary They can tell I’m getting near it No phone calls, now call log, I gotta clear it Hit the voicemail, leave your details, I gotta run Doing suicides, gotta provide, I got a son Now it's do or die you, and I homie pick a side Did the math and carrying the one ain't really into that
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Lost Child 04:00
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Yeah Let’s go Time will always tell where the real ones at Took a couple L’s to reveal those facts No rollie wrist watch, I can tell what the time is Equals money, so you know where my mind is Either stacking or this rapping how I’m grinding If that battle’s up a mountain, know I’m climbing Some homies caught feelings Started hating on me Mood turned Judas started snakin’ on me I’m just tryna get some paper homie, on me Have the whole team balling like the Lakers Oh three Kobe No idea what I been through Nights thats I cried, getting high in the rental Couldn’t empathize or find why, in my mental Had to realize it’s going to be what it’s meant to Be, but it’s seems that I hit my limit Tried my cards several times but I ain’t get the digits So I had to lay back, lay flat, what I built up Change up preparation I was living off of good luck Get by when I’m flying high Felt the bottom couple times, a reminder why I Take time when I’m feeling right Guess I’ll try to find myself, when I find the right time Get by when I’m flying high Felt the bottom couple times, a reminder why I Take time when I’m feeling right Guess I’ll try to find myself, when I find the right Made that trip down to the ‘A’, they started switching on up Thought I was focused on myself, but I was focused on us When I fell on my face, they was clowning Thought that I could swim underwater I was drowning, sharks surrounded They was waiting on my soul, but they never found it Had to climb out the abyss, had to find my balance Put some struggle in the mix, you might find your talent Can’t come up from the bottom if you never round it Sometimes I feel like living life But I can’t find why, when I look inside I try my best just to make it right When you see that pain shine in your mother’s eyes I try my best just to make a dime I try my best just to stay alive Why it brings lies, when they see me strive Time will always tell where the real lie Get by when I’m flying high Felt the bottom couple times, a reminder why I Take time when I’m feeling right Guess I’ll try to find myself, when I find the right time Get by when I’m flying high Felt the bottom couple times, a reminder why I Take time when I’m feeling right Guess I’ll try to find myself, when I find the right When I find the right time
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Homecoming 03:14
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Taking no shots with no chaser Damn I was I was taking shots with no chaser, can’t pace ‘em I think I’m wasted Barely taking time to taste ‘em, I aim at any occasion Murky waters that I wade in, hide the stench of my failure Working I’m getting paper for drama Can’t even make up But I’ve been had to make due With these hard times Give me clear views on the front line Paying my dues Gotta stay down and remain true I’ve been down I’ve been patient It don’t hurt me to grow Life done hurt me before Still the hurt doesn’t show Take my time when I roll up and reminisce on the pain Light that spliff and I blow out that shit that stuck on my brain It just helps me maintain that distance far from these ghosts Sometimes get lost in the smoke I lost it all for the dough I was swimming in the abyss I couldn’t drown Time steady ticking away Look what I found My way I’m not around Some days I’m in the clouds Someway I lift the crown I was swimming in the abyss I couldn’t drown Time steady ticking away Look what I found My way I’m not around Some days I’m in the clouds Someway I lift the crown Someway I Little homie hit me up Gotta do a bid for shit he ain’t did They was killing niggas that he roll with Shit he was trying to make it in Remember when he was a kid He was trying to find his way Now he got a couple days ‘till he walk in Man this shit crazy So what you ‘ain't got the dollars No Gucci, Louis, or Prada So what she ‘aint never holla Give you good brain, turn you to a scholar So what, you still with your mama? I hope you paying them bills Hope you keeping it real Always time to make mills See I made it here off of instinct Knew a couple suckas ‘aint shit sweet Couple brothers tried to diss me Had to cut ‘em off like a limp knee Taking chances moving risky Thinking bout how my wrist freeze Not thinking about what I was risking Trippin’ off on these missions Got me drifting off in the distance Back and forth repetition I was moving so ignorant Now I’m moving so different Action based off my pigment Trying to show there’s a better way So don't risk it all for that vision Better days in position I was swimming in the abyss I couldn’t drown Time steady ticking away Look what I found My way I’m not around Some days I’m in the clouds Someway I lift the crown I was swimming in the abyss I couldn’t drown Time steady ticking away Look what I found My way I’m not around Some days I’m in the clouds Someway I lift the crown Someway I
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Dawn 02:45
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Time wasted Lost patience and I’m jaded I’m fading and Time wasted Lost patience and I’m jaded I’m fading and Damn Yeah Words on the page mean nothing ‘till you got something to turn too Aim for the stars, don’t let the pain turn into scars, they’ll hurt you Trails so hurtful Vials and purple Man in the mirror saying ‘curse you’ Got me in my crib like curfew Wanted the bread Thinking a loaf Maybe some kids Live on the coast Is what it is That was a hope Down on my last You wouldn't know How does it feel when you living a dream? And your nightmare come rip out your soul How does it feel when you want to repeat? But you living the life that you chose How does it feel when you want to just feel? But there's nothing around you to hold? Did I get lost on the road? Now I have nowhere to go Nights on the go, trying to find my soul How’d it go so easy? Turn the Honda to a teepee Watching highlights on repeat Now I’m losing all my grip I’m ‘bout to crash Thinking bout the past I never had Said I faced my fears, ended on my back Lost it all, put my heart on that Time wasted Lost patience and I’m jaded I’m fading and Had nothing Past subject crash dummy Time wasted Lost patience and I’m jaded I’m fading and…
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Neiko's Song 02:24
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Verse: Little man you balance me. Crazy cause I weigh about 10 times you do. Still the way you hold me up sometimes I swear it's voodoo. This fatherhood shit more complex than a sudoku Before I had you I was lost Wasn't living for a cause running wilder Than a hundred horses tryna find they course Like i was drunk at the kentucky derby I’d bet it all Taking chances they did not concern me They came back to hurt me It took surgery to fix my heart Call me Iron Man no tony stark I fell a apart Without ball I was in the dark Shooting darts No bullseye Just bullshit You pulled me out the pulpit kid Verse: My one wish for you Is that you walk through this life in some different shoes See yah pops a fool I didn’t play my cards right I tried to bend the rules Tryna be something I’m not like I had shit to prove Now I got shit to lose You See me as a guidance So I can never leave your side and have you out here blinded. Prepare you for this climate Build you up to be a giant Sometimes when I’m gone on the road I start crying When I’m not home I hit you up facetiming Swerving on this journey i just need some realignment damn I’m supposed to be teaching you but you teaching me Now I gotta live my life with some decency I’m living differently Taking time on this path like a centipede Going for runs so I can see you grow It's getting difficult

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Canadian rap artist and songwriter B1GJuice challenges the Toronto hip-hop sector to engage in a vulnerable dialogue on mental health, while staying sharp with the bars on his 2022 project “Shadows”. B1GJuice is an award-winning producer and rap artist performing publicly since 2017. This NCAA Division 1 athlete found a love for music, after an athletic career was sidelined by an untimely diagnosis of Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy. In seven hard-hitting tracks, “Shadows” captures the sense of loss and psychological demons that have plagued B1GJuice as he navigates fatherhood and the cutthroat hustle. Paired with the release of this cerebral project, B1GJuice has printed a limited run of “Shadows” photo-booklets available on his website, as well as premiered an official album microfilm. B1GJuice continues to provide a strong live sound to performances and community arts initiatives across the Greater Toronto Area, while mentoring many young emerging artists in the city. Special thanks to Canada Council for the Arts and FACTOR Canada.

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released July 16, 2022

All songs written and performed by Tyreek Phillips
Mixed by Colin Ong
Mastered by Agrey Ellis
Co-Produced by Bitter & Broke

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B1GJuice Brampton, Ontario

An award-winning producer and soul-hop artist who has been presenting work publicly since 2017. As a former NCAA D1 athlete returning home from a diagnosis of a rare heart disease, it was his love for music that drove him to live again. Integrating vulnerability with hard-hitting stories; B1GJuice uses his voice to speak to the sheer resilience every creator needs today. ... more

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